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Touché Day Dreaming

One day, I was listening to someone I adore. I was in a rough spot and trying to grasp some of his wisdom  to see what could apply to my situation. Towards the end of the conversation this extraordinary man, my father, said, "But you know what? I don't worry. I know you. You're a fighter and you trust God. You will be fine."
Ignore my silly expression, I was singing & dancing ^.^

        He said it with such confidence that the conversation has marked my mind forever. Why? Well because for years now I believed my future was bleak. His poise and certainty of my capabilities not only encouraged me but reminded me why I love him so much. Among so many other phenomenal qualities, he's always believed in me even when I did not see much in myself.
       Most of my life, people would tell me oh Ola you're going to do a lot of great things and I would smile and walk away, but in my head, I'm like yyyeeaaaa righhht *insert side eye here.* I had a really hard time seeing past the "right now," which was usually not great or okay at all. Even this year, I know 2012 is a great year but I wondered if 2013 would be downhill. I surely did not believe in myself in any way shape or form then. Then, I was highly addicted to my past. Like I stated in Addicted that in order to move forward, you have to want to go there. I did not want to move forward. I did not think anything that exciting was there. Until, one day when I was praying and mayne this came alive to me...

Ephesians 3: 20 (Amplified Version)
Now to Him Who by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly far over and above all that we dare ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes or dreams].

I had to write it out on my wall a few times! People close to me know that I dream vividly. Dream as in sleep dreaming... They happen as if they are real and I'll wake up and remember every tiny little detail. Sometimes they are flat out crazy and other times they are realistic, but they are always vivid. It is as if God dared me to ask Him what I want. If God can do better than my wildest imagination... then what am I waiting for? That was all I needed to hear! I started making list of things I would like to have and things I would like to get rid of. From getting rid of fears, a nonchalant attitude to having a new apartment, specific things I want in my marriage, bills being paid, things I wanted within a month, things I wanted over time, dreams that have been laughed at, things I've never said out loud, things I gave up on... all kinds of things! I wish I could adequately express the joy I felt when I realized all of my dreams can become a reality.

To make it sweeter, I later heard teachings on how this is actually a Godly principle! Terri Savelle-Foy was a guest speaker at my home church's Women's Conference and for two days, this is exactly what she taught on. It impacted and built on what I heard from God directly. She taught us how to expand on our lists. You should not just write things down, but you thank God for it as if you already have it! She showed us different people, from Jim Carrey, herself, and the author of Chicken Noodle Soup, who have used these principles and it has worked! There's also a theoretical explanation about how this works but I can't remember the name. Once you consciously say you want something, you become more aware of everything related to it in your environment. Those things we're always there, now you are just aware of their proximity to you. 

I've even found things in the Word concerning different radical things (well they seem radical to me) that are on my list and if I can find it in the Word... it's a done deal. No one can ever tell me different. It's mine. On the other hand, I found somethings I had to drop like a hot porarro* lol that I won't be looking back on. Just being honest *shrugs*

This dream state surely marked a new phase in my life. I have finally put the past behind me, where it belongs, and I'm super excited for my future! As I now always say: Shikena to my Past, and Touché to my Future. I'm ready, rejuvenated and reaching out for success.

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  1. Shikena to my Past, and Touché to my Future. (nice!)


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