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I can worry. I can, but I won't.

So much is happening. So much has happened. It's like you stay forever waiting for all of your geese to line up and then just when you think you're there, one of em is out of place again.

I can worry, but I won't.

I'm controlling. I'll admit it. I'm an analytical thinker, so I'll plan and plan and plan and analyze on how everything should be. I also know that I'm not God. Things can go to plan or they can change, so I usually have about three plans ready.

I lost someone very dear to me. One of my brothers. Life is short. Shorter than the sentence I used to state that it's short. Death can be very evil. Especially when the person is young. It has the power to change the people it did not take. I pray we change for the better. And with that, it's taught me, don't worry. Just keep praying and hoping and staying positive and let the chips fall where they may.

I'm here eating Mango Sorbet while Baby Gee makes attempts to say hi to you all by pressing keys... and this sorbet is soo against my better eating habits and the 5 lbs I've lost that Mr. Significant apparently can't see  but na him sabi. How do I say it? What am I trying to say?

It's like it finally dawned on me, why do I stress so much if it's all vanity. Vanity upon vanity is all vanity, yea I know that. Then somehow it just seems so ridiculous that I plan so much. It somehow just pushed me to really let go. Just let God do it all. To stop caring so much. Let things be out of my control and be okay with that... really dropping it in God's lap and letting it fall out of my mind. I don't have to go back and check on it to see if there's been progress. I don't have to be on pins and needles about it. I can just thank God because it will or will not happen but it is His Will.

I can worry, but I don't want to.

I rather put more trust in the people around me. Give people the benefit of doubt. Know that things will not go wrong every single time. Put more trust in God.

I won't worry.... but saying I'm bummed is an understatement. Death, it changes things. It has changed my perspective. Life sometimes, it gets tough. It's crazy that we move carry on, but you would want us to. And before I start rambling on and on and on, I just hope my family is as strong as we say we are. God please help us through these times. My new angel is someone dear to me... missing you like crazy Love.

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In AIDs health HIV Purple Ink Say Whhaa stories

Dec 1st

It was an ordinary September class day.... well almost. This day, my university was offering free on-site HIV testing. One swab, about a 20 minute wait and you would know your status. I went in there a lil fearful because I went to school with a lot of my church buddies and I was nervous about entering the clinic and seeing one of them. So I went in early, just in case I ran into someone and would have to leave. Getting tested for the first time was a big deal, not to mention the extra stress I was adding to myself. *scoffs*

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In Chronicles Purple Ink Rehab

Two: Wishful Thinking

*Ding*
The elevator doors close. Lucy is lucky I am loyal and would not leave a friend hanging! I told her I don't do club activities! Frustrated, I kept thinking about how I got dragged into going to this so called listening party. All she said was she needed a friend to go to a listening party a guy invited her to. That's what I get for not asking the right questions. It's like 20 sum'mn degrees outside! I should be home chilling with my family or working on jewelry designs! Instead I'm here in some warehouse on Chicago's South Side at a listening party.
Msssccchhhewwwww

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In Purple Ink

Smile For Me

One would think that after typing for four straight hours in an attempt to meet an assignment's deadline, I would stop writing right? 
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Nope.
SN: I'm not even aware of who this female is, or why she's dressed as such but her facial expression... yea that's me right now.

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In Chronicles Definition Purple Ink Rehab

One: A Dream State

Photo by Fred Mathews
After a long day at the hospital, I'm excited to arrive at my front door. I put my key inside the lock, push the door open, and there I am. Our haven of peace and joy. I place my things down at the table and a sistah's hongry so I head to the kitchen while I yell, "Hey babe!" 
Yasss, my portion of the dinner I prepared for the evening before heading to work has been carefully dished out for me! His very smooth self whispers, "Hey Beautiful" as he embraces me with a kiss. I finally get situated next to him with my dinner plate while he diligently works on (choose from: family budget, editing one of my books, working on his own book, work from work, personal entrepreneurial work, or ministerial/Kingdom work or some other related material). 
After discussing small talk, either of, or two things happen... 1. I go off into "Baby you know what...." revealing a pool of thoughts that have been swarming around inside my head while he guides me through and helps me enhance these ideas or adds clarity to whatever it is I'm pondering. OR/AND 2. He shares with me ideas that will improve our lives, something that the Ultimate Love has discussed with him, tells me something I need to get my act straight over, or something that made him laugh
I'm full and we're both sleepy. It's time to wash the dishes, put my kitchen in order and prepare for the next day. Most times, he decides to help me but this time he waits in the bedroom where I later join him. This is the part where sleep leaves our vocabulary because uh, it is time to play...

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In Chat Tea Rehab

Power In The Process


I am ‘far-fetched’ in my thinking.  
I don’t believe anything is impossible and my basis is this: GOD is sovereign (Ps24:1).  Simple.  HE rules over all (Ps 103:19) and can do what HE likes and HE has a soft spot for me (Isaiah43:4), so much that HE gave me HIS absolute best and allowed HIM to go through pain and suffering just so I could be with HIM eternally (John3:16).  If HE did that, what will HE not do (Rom8:32)? So it’s hard for me to conceive anything as out of reach.  The issue often times is that what we want is not in alignment with GOD’s will (James4:3, Prov19:21).  So it’s imperative that we be in tune with HIS SPIRIT, because the SPIRIT knows HIS will (1Cor2:10) and if we are surrendered, HE will lead us accordingly (Isaiah 30:21).

And sometimes, even when we are in alignment with the will of GOD, things won’t come right when we want them.  And if I’ve learned anything in my walk with GOD (though through kicking, screaming, biting, and pouting), it is this (besides the deep yet simple truth that GOD loves us fiercely), it is that there is 
power in the process.

     I’ve learned that what we learn in the acquisition of one thing or the other that GOD put in our hearts, is often times more valuable and profound and lasting even than the very thing we go through it to get.  GOD is sooo wise and HE knows that only such can motivate us enough to do certain things…things that if we do more of, we can grow much more into what HE intends for us.  So, you see, sometimes it’s not about the particular desire, but the process that GOD wanted to work out in you along the way.  

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In About

Who be Ola sef?

   


     Pardon my manners, I realized I never properly introduced myself! Bonjour! I Am Ola Blessed and I'm on a mission.

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In Rehab

Yelz I'm Celibating

Lately, my eyes urm *cough* have urm noticed the beauty in men of urm different ethnicities... 
What I'm tryna say is I've been suffering from chooking eye syndrome. What is chooking eye syndrome? Keep reading to better understand...

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In Purple Ink

A Dash of Lime & A Spoon of Honey

I had a special guest last week. 
It was a very ironic but much needed & appreciated visit.
It was my dear mama!!!
I may be the biggest 20 something year old baby, but i'm okay with that!

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In Purple Ink

I Know

I know how she felt.
The one who caressed and anointed His tired feet,
the one who they found it easy to mock,
the one who they condemned in their hypocrisy,
belittled in their arrogance;
I know how she felt.
Condemned by my own sin
mocked by my own reflection.
I know how it feels to stand in His presence,
Water His feet with tears so bittersweet,
to be received, 
looked upon,
embraced with loved,
cleansed and freed by the one with such Majesty,
the One so high it’s a wonder He considered me
even in my lowly state.
Overlooked, neglected, down-trodden, and degraded by so many
It’s amazing that he wants me.
You didn’t, and neither did he, but He did.
And that’s all that matters to me.
Not just my body
Not just my smile
Not just my brains or my creativity,
He wants all of me.
Forget the bended knee,
The ring,
This right here is for all Eternity.

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